Challenge

So Mike and I decided to take the $50 challenge. In a magazine that I subscribe to there was an article in there about living off $50 a week. I thought,.... why not give it a try. What's the worst that could happen? We could save some money? Darn : ) The only exception that I am doing is that I get one tankof gas that I will fill up today. (Otherwise I wouldn't even be able to get a full tankand then what would we eat for the rest of the week?!?!) If this goes well, I think I will try to do it next week as well. I don't think we would be able to go much longer than that though cause we got bills to pay!
I just got done making my grocery list from the flyers yesterday and we will see how shopping goes this after noon! Any body else want to go in on the challenge? Maybe it is easy for some people but it will be a challenge for us.

Just thinking...

So as I was laying in bed last night I let my mind wander, as always. I was thinking about my blog and the title. "Continuing on after the storm." Sometimes I still feel like I am in the storm, so I am not yet through it. Or am I? I dunno. Apon furth ponderings I have come up with this:
I am through the storm (I compare the 'storm' I went through to Gustav,... times 5).
I am dealing with the FLOODS of my emotions.
I am trying to put the POWER BACK ON in my faith.
I am REBUILDING my confidence, self-esteem,...
So, yes, I am through the worst of the storm. It's just the aftermath that I am trying to recover from. But I will recover. Life will go on and somedays will be terribly and others,.. not so bad. It's just something that God had me go through and I need to try to grow from it and become a stronger person (as hard as it may seem right now).

On a lighter note, my finger is so much better. All they really did at therapy was massage it and do a perifin wax stretch (which I can do at home because I have one!) But it has helped a lot and we will see if it was worth it or not when I get the medical bill!?!?!?!

And one and two and,...

I am off to go to physical therepy for my pinkey. That just cracks me up. My pinkey finger!!! LOL. I have no idea what they are going to do but the doctor said that if I don't go, I will never get full ROM in the finger. That would suck! He said that things look good, I just have a bunch of scar tissue around the knuckle (which prevents it from bending). So hopefully they will take it easy on me today as my finger is still really sensitive when I try to move it. I will let you all know how it goes.

Not a good day

I don't know if it's because of the weather or what but I am in a super yucky mood today! I miss the girls terribly. I miss the thought of holding them, rocking them to sleep, feeding them,... EVERYTHING! I just want them back and in my arms! ~tear~
On this yucky day and with my rotten mood, all I want to do is lay in bed in my PJs, eat a whole sleeve of oreos with a big glass of milk, watch a sad romance and cry the day away. But, I gotta go meet with the family, put my happy face on, and pretend that everything is juuuuuust peachy! Blach! I just hate it that everyone else's life can go on as normal and I am stuck wallowing in sadness. Aghh,.. whatever.

oops...

Sorry, I forgot to post an update from the blood test. My results were,.... 9! Yah. No surgery for Kellie!! I still need to go in for blood work again to get it down below 5 but I am VERY close!! That's all for now. Thank goodness! I just want my life to be boring for a while! Sounds crazy huh?!?! I would love to go a month with no doc visits, no tests, no worries! Oh well,...

Gettin' another poke

Well, I am off to go get more blood tests. When I had my miscarraige I had to go in and get my hormones checked two times. The first time was 200 the next was 90 (that's a good thing I guess). Now my doc is hopeing for around 30. And I will keep getting poked until I reach 5. I hate getting IV's, blood drawn,... so I asked my doc how long this will take to get to 5; and she said some girls are a 5 the next week and some girls it takes months. I don't think I could handel getting poked on a weekly basis for MONTHS! Oy! That's all for now. God Bless.
~Kellie~

well,....

Ok. I suppose I should share some sad news with you all out there. Mike and I found out we were pregnant again about a week ago.

We were so excited!!! (Can you tell by how big my smile is?!?!) But, a few days later I started spotting and I ended up having a miscarraige the next day (Thursday). I am still kinda in shock! It all happened so fast! We are and then we aren't.

I just keep asking myself why? I don't understand what God has against me. Why does he allow me to keep having these heart aches? Why does he not want me to have babies? Why can't I just have the happy healthy family that I have been longing for so long? So, needless to say, the labor day weekend that I had wanted to enjoy for so long, I didn't. It was great weather and everything but I was stuck in my chair for most of the weekend, having to take it easy.

We did get to go to the Tigers game on Monday though. It was a makeup against the Yankees. It was nice I suppose. I think I did too much though because I am just exhausted today. They lost too, so that stinks. Other than that, there isn't much else going on. I think that's enough though!