I lost Leah and Maya over 2 months ago and I still wonder. I can't help but think today that I would have been almost 8 months pregnant with the girls. I can't help but lay and wonder what could have been, what should have been! Like I have said before, I try to enjoy the good things in life. A sunny morning with blue skies to wake up to, a pedicure, a swimmer or parent showing appreciation for what I do everyday, or just the tight hug from my hubby. I try to stay in the moment and soak up everything. Much much easier said than done! I know in the back of my head that God has a greater plan than I could ever understand or (at the moment) appreciate. I just,... ...I dunno. It's so tough! God is really testing me today that's for sure!
Well,... I suppose I should go and try to sleep! God Bless! ~kell~
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- Kellie
- I started blogging in the spring of 2008 after the death of my twin baby girls, Leah and Maya. This is my journey after loosing them and the many other hardships that I have been through since.
Some powerful verses:
"Wait on the Lord...and He shall strengthen thine heart..." Psalm 27: 14
"Blessed are they that mour; for they shall be comforted." Matthew 5: 4
"God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes." Revelation 21: 4
"Blessed are they that mour; for they shall be comforted." Matthew 5: 4
"God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes." Revelation 21: 4
Background
Do YOU know?
Do you know how hard it is
To hold two babies that don’t cry?
Do you know how hard it is
To tell those babies goodbye?
Do you know how hard it is
To look at an empty bed?
Knowing your children should be sleeping there
Resting their sleepy heads?
Do you know how hard it is
Feeling that your to blame?
And no matter what they tell you
You’ll always feel the shame
Do you know the heartache
Knowing their gone for good?
And feeling that you didn’t do
All the things you could
Do you know how hard it is
To hear that it’s Gods will?
Do you know the emptieness
When your children are bor still?
To hold two babies that don’t cry?
Do you know how hard it is
To tell those babies goodbye?
Do you know how hard it is
To look at an empty bed?
Knowing your children should be sleeping there
Resting their sleepy heads?
Do you know how hard it is
Feeling that your to blame?
And no matter what they tell you
You’ll always feel the shame
Do you know the heartache
Knowing their gone for good?
And feeling that you didn’t do
All the things you could
Do you know how hard it is
To hear that it’s Gods will?
Do you know the emptieness
When your children are bor still?
1 comment:
Hello! I just came in and read your blog and I cried and cried. I am so sorry for your loss, but I wish you all the best of luck and happiness in the future.
Hang in there, sweetie!
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